A few realities have hit me hard this week. Neither the Mr or I know what were doing so we have been fumbling around for a few months in limbo, throwing ideas around daily. Busy surviving but not really living to our fullest capacity. I feel restricted and this is unnerving me on a base level. Ive been pondering over Maxabellas post all morning and again wish I had her masterful penmanship in order to clear even the simple thoughts, but I dont, so wont try; plus the thoughts im having are of the deep, dark kind and no-one wants to dwell there.
Im aware that I thrive on the freedom that change gives a person, and not wishing to sound flippant (but probably will) need to desperately do something to lighten my mood. Something just for myself without others dictating what it can or should be. An injection of colour therapy is in order.
Ive mentioned how much I love the feel of this current house we are in, but the fact is that we are only here for a few short months as they will demolish it as soon as the permits come through. The landlord has given us the full go ahead to paint wherever we like, which I love the sound of but the Mr thinks im strange for wanting to waste time and paint. Okay, so I dont necessarily have a whole heap of time up my sleeve but I would rather spend an evening or two painting than sitting around watching tv, and the paint we already have litres of. Painting stuff is like my down time.
All but one of the rooms are the original colours and have never ever been repainted since this place was built, its only the hallway I have huge issues with. Its a type of gloomy yellow nothing colour and I cant stand it. I fully realise that 99.9% of people would leave it as is and I wish I could be the same. Im not certain but entering this room upon arriving home transports me to my childhood and makes me feel stuck. I quickly move onto another room. So, along the lines of 'prevention is better than cure'
im now positive the entry here has to be painted soon.
How about you...
Does colour affect you deeply too?
Are you in the point one percent like I am?
Do you feel free when change happens?